The End of a Long Day

I live in a world where hopes and dreams have taken a back seat to the harsh reality of the day.
My thoughts keep me grounded but not always in the way you would think. I am the type of person that will always smile, but if you truly looked at me you would see the tear marks running down my face. Tears from the fear and lonliness that swallow me whole and leave gaping wounds where my heart and soul use to be. I hope someday you will truly see the person underneath, until then she will stay hidden behind this happy exterior that everyone including myself prefers. To show my true self means to be vulnerable around people that could hurt me and I just can't do that.

Today has been one of those days you dread. Had to get to work really early and by 9 AM my feet were killing me and I was dragging. As much joy as I get out of my job I also have never been more frustrated as I am some days there. The people are great and make me laugh and smile. My manager on the other hand can drive me crazy. She is a good person but I am not sure she knows how to lead without being overbearing and controlling. There are times I feel like the misunderstood and always in trouble 12 year old with her.

I can say that I am very thankful this week is half over. By Monday I will be done with school for 3 months and believe me that is a load off of my shoulders. Also it will mean I have less than 2 weeks till I see my best friends. We only see each other about once a year but when we get together it is like nothing has changed and we are all crazy 21- year olds that love to go out and dance. They give me something to look forward too.