I know that the world of blogging is all about putting your thoughts and feelings into words for the world. As you can see I am not so good at that. I have struggled the past 3 months in college because many of my courses have had papers in them. My History one I have had to do 3 papers and I have one more due in a few weeks. Needless to say writing and I do not get along. My one interesting class is Woman's Studies and I have to write a poem/ page about A Letter to my Daughter. The past two weeks have been very emotional because I am not sure how to write this to a child I so desperately want but probably will never have. Do I just put in things I would want to pass on to them or do I tell stories about my life. Sadly I should probably read the book before I get to stressed out about this assignment.
For those of you who do not know me I am a family person. My dreams in life were to be a wife and mother. That is all I have ever wanted. A few years ago I got a diagnosis that makes it difficult to have kids. At the time it was no big deal because I had yet to meet a man that I wanted to be with. Now as I see 30 on the horizon I am really scared as I know I want kids but more than likely will have to do this one my own and figure out if this is even something I physically can do and financially afford. My friend Holly to me epitomizes motherhood she has 2 beautiful little girls under the age of 2. Although I know she has struggled she makes everything seem so easy. I am not sure why I have gotten so sappy tonight, maybe because I am fighting a cold or just a little down.
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