Writing and I are not Good Friends

I know that the world of blogging is all about putting your thoughts and feelings into words for the world. As you can see I am not so good at that. I have struggled the past 3 months in college because many of my courses have had papers in them. My History one I have had to do 3 papers and I have one more due in a few weeks. Needless to say writing and I do not get along. My one interesting class is Woman's Studies and I have to write a poem/ page about A Letter to my Daughter. The past two weeks have been very emotional because I am not sure how to write this to a child I so desperately want but probably will never have. Do I just put in things I would want to pass on to them or do I tell stories about my life. Sadly I should probably read the book before I get to stressed out about this assignment.

For those of you who do not know me I am a family person. My dreams in life were to be a wife and mother. That is all I have ever wanted. A few years ago I got a diagnosis that makes it difficult to have kids. At the time it was no big deal because I had yet to meet a man that I wanted to be with. Now as I see 30 on the horizon I am really scared as I know I want kids but more than likely will have to do this one my own and figure out if this is even something I physically can do and financially afford. My friend Holly to me epitomizes motherhood she has 2 beautiful little girls under the age of 2. Although I know she has struggled she makes everything seem so easy. I am not sure why I have gotten so sappy tonight, maybe because I am fighting a cold or just a little down.

Halloween sure has changed

I am just begining to realize how much things have changed from when I was a kid. For instance Halloween is completly different than I remember when I was growing up.
Back then you went trick or treating with your friends or family. The parents were not always there because you trusted everyone in your neighborhood. Now I am learning how much we have evolved. One of the guys I work with is having a trick of drunk party. Now maybe I am a little sheltered but I had no idea what that was until he explained it. Basically they have candy for the kids and a keg for the parents so while your kids are getting candy you can grab a beer. How crazy is that! Although the concept is really smart I do not know if I would give liquor to people I do not know. Another girl I work with says last year on their block people would rent a hay rack and drop the kids off at one end of block and then meet them at the other end. And of course on a hay rack ride what do you have. Liquor! It is just very odd to think about.
Well to everyone who celebrates Happy Halloween. Be safe

Just Breathe

Sorry to the blog universe for being so lax in my postings.
The past 3 months have been so busy and stressful that I was kind of afraid on what I would say here.
Here is a brief synopsis on my life since June. In July I went to be a reader in my cousin's wedding. LOTS of fun and then went on a weeklong tour of Wisconsin where I got to see what I feel are my Wisconsin family: Holly, Molly, Jen, and Lori. I love and miss you guys. Got back to Omaha and a week and a half later was moving into an apartment YIKES!! So the end of July and August was all about moving and getting acclimated to having roomates again. The last time I had roomates was when I lived with Lori and Pat before they got married which was 5 years ago. Also in August I had a birthday turned the age of 28 and sadly had a rough time with this birthday. September was a month of stress from work, to starting back to school, to learning to brush annoyances off my shoulder. So that is my life for the past 3 months.
I wish I could say that there is something on the horizon to look forward to but sadly there is not. Unless you count the holidays which means time off. Although if all goes according to plan I will graduate college in August YEAH!
I am hoping the month of October I can just sit back and just breathe. Although I am a personal attendant in my good friend Jen's wedding and with school I am thinking just breathing will not happen. In a totally different note the title of my post is also the name of a VERY good book by Susan Wiggs. If you are ever having a rough day I recomend picking it up and reading it.
Well good night blog world!